The Scream Within
The stage is set but the floor is still wet
For the eyes have flowed all of last night
And now the only sparkle that lies
Lies within the inferno of burning dreams
Hearts that once were ablaze with the desires of a tomorrow
Now seek solace in the castles of smoke and haze
“Where are you?” shouts someone from inside
But these doors have been closed for long
And whatever name where written once
Have long since lost in dust
Like the names written on the windshields instead of hearts
I look for your marks somewhere in this desert world
To walk away from the ways you would have walked
To be united but in my own solitude
Where the sound of my voice is not killed
By the cacophony of your objectivity
Where it still rains, red, black, blue and white of my dreams
And the six strings still strum the music of some other world.
The Rains That I Hate
The story it goes on again
Playing same on this side and next
The books which I left unclosed
Now my life seeps through those pores
And I exist somewhere in these gaps
Somewhere between your smiles
Like a puppet swinging by these threads
And I now live just to see another day
Hoping to find you in these streets
Waiting for the moment when you would cross my way.
These clouds want to bleed again tonight
I plead to the heavens to at least wait
Until I find a perfect place to conceal my tears and hide
Now for the first time I hate this rain
For these raindrops washed away
Your sweet intoxicating smell
And now I live to see just another day
When you would be with me
Lost, in my embrace.
Why Didn’t You
Why don’t you read my mind
Why don’t you tell me wrong from right
Hold my hand while I walk you through my life
A thousand stars that have lit this night
Why don’t we let them guide
As we find together our place in time.
Look deep within, look deep inside your life
For this is where all the meanings hide
Like these hidden and unsaid emotions
And all the things that we held inside
For something’s sound better if left undefined.
But if only you would have read my mind
Or read the unwritten in between these lines
And seen the truth despite the starkness of these lies
Then probably we won’t have lost what we tried so hard to find.
A Morning Dream
This morning’s dream felt so alive
Like a last remnant of night
Or an untold memoirs of a long forgotten life
It was still there when I opened my eyes.
Your love was like the only hope that survived
When all that was once mine was swept away
Like a lonely traveler lost in a whirlwind of time
Together we sifted through these sands
As this world passed us by
And in that instant when our eyes finally met
All the dreams that you had inside of you
Become the only purpose of my life.
This what I saw this morning
With a crimson tinge of sun filling the sky
All the dreams that you have seen once
Were now safe like this unforgotten dream in my eyes.
Story of the night
The story of my life lies forsaken
Crumbled and strewn like bed sheets along the floor
As the light of the fading sun filters through the windows
I stare and hope for you to walk back through that open door.
A thousand nights when we lay on that bed
Dreaming of things and searching for words but holding back
For something’s sound better if left unsaid
Moments flew away and with each of our breathe
We kept on plummeting through this shallow abyss.
We held each other till there was no time
And when the morning sun filled the room with light
You walked away like the darkness from a fading night
Leaving nothing but your absence as the only evidence of our crime.
All those dreams which have felt so true
Broke off like waves as they hit the shore
And I lay there trying to recollect all that you left behind
Like the bed sheet crumbled and strewn across the floor.
Lost Without You
It was like any other day
When I happen to throw it all away
Now I search for it along every road
But without love this life seems so cold
What I gave up, I can never know
For death seems like life without a soul
But if I could go back and make things right
And put into words all that’s hidden inside
Perhaps then both of us can move on with our respective lives
For we could no longer walk together along these roads
And without each other it’s our destiny, to be lost
Final GoodBye
Close your eyes for I don’t want to be seen
As I slip away into an oblivion
And once again become a part of your dreams.
It’s not love but rather a pain which my heart feels
For all these memories are like wounds
And I am afraid they may never heal.
I have to walk alone with you gone by my side
I will fumble, I will fall and perhaps I will lose myself
But I won’t look back or think of you
For this pain is what that will keep me alive.
Our paths may once again cross one day
And our hearts may have healed enough for us to embrace
But till then I chose to walk a different way
For a goodbye perhaps is what suffices now
And perhaps my absence is what you need.
A Thousand Sleepless Nights
A thousand lies couldn’t have changed my destiny
A thousand broken dream
And I am still confusing this perception for reality.
A thousand words couldn’t have expressed the truth
A thousand forsaken roads
And I am still confusing this loneliness for solitude.
A thousand dying stars that lie somewhere in this galaxy
A thousand unrequited promises
And I still believe this love will last for an eternity.
A thousand boats that crashed along the straits of sins
A thousand candles that got blown by these winds
A thousand nights when I couldn’t sleep
And I still wish for this life to be true like my dreams.
View from a Park Bench
A dull ache permeates through these winds
As your feet rustle through these yellow autumn leaves
Silent clouds of melancholy filling your eyes
With unfallen tears
Waiting like a dry and yellow unfallen autumn leave
Hoping for a gust, waiting for a release.
Passing through those rustic gates
Looking for familiarity
Amidst all these strange inscriptions and names
Like a dry autumn leave
Trying to find a resting place
Far away from sheltering branches of a tree.
You bent down and place your rosary
With your lips moving in a silent prayer
Gently with a touch as light as this wind
You brush of the dust from the epitaph
Engraved on the tombstone of our beloved’s grave.
