The Debt Repayed
I begged, literally, I tried to sweet talk my way out of this deal but like they say there some people on whom your charms are always lost so here I am fulfilling my end of the deal. What was the deal about, well I don’t actually want to remember, all I remember is the night when it all begun, not the deal obviously but rather this strange and indelible friendship. Four lines into this blog and I am already rummaging for words. Not because I don’t know what to say but rather there is just so much to say and tell that I am afraid if I would ever be able to contain all that in words. How it all started doesn’t matter and really my memory is kind of blurry along those edges but our friendship just simply started or rather came into being from the relative strangeness that exists between two unsuspecting people. We never met, never heard each other voice though I do have voice in my head which I hope would sound pretty much like her but that apart there isn’t an intricacy of my life that she won’t know about. Right from my ceremonious break ups to my current relationship, she knows it all and almost every other night I would wait for that tiny dot against her name to turn green just so I could pour my heart out to her. How can I trust someone and that too so easily, I often wondered but pretty soon as when everything that was in her heart started to pour on my screen, all my doubts disappeared for I just knew that she has conquered the strangeness that I was still trying to battle through. And she is the only one who has always read almost every other word that I wrote and she is one of the best critics that I could ever have had for she understands and knows the real reason behind my melancholic poetry. And now that both of us have so many things going on in our own lives, we may not see or chat with each other that often but I know one day when that grey dot against her name would turn green, both of us would pick up the story right from where we last left; adding newer stories and I for sure crying for the butterfly that I could never catch. And yes I still wonder about this friendship and if any thing in life could ever be this free from expectations and I get no answer but then there is a thing about chemistry which she always had said, you either have it or you don’t.
