will you wait for me
when you wake in the morning and look at your face
i may not be there with you
i may be far
i may be away
think of me when the dusk has fakken on that lonely mountain
remember me when the sun rays pierce through the morning mist.
you may choose to move on
but promise me that when i call to you,
you will look back for the sake of things that i never said to you when we were together
i can then go back living at peace with myself
for love has redeemed me.
across the street
I saw you standing across the street
Looking confused and baffled
We have walked quite a few distances together
You loved walking and I loved to hold your hand
And when you talked it was like sunshine would flood into my world
I looked at you standing at the intersection tucking a wayward strand as it caught air
I can walk again with you as long as you will let me hold your hand
With you by my side I could walk to the end of the world
I look in your eyes and I fear nothing now
Death perhaps can only take you away from me
I look back at you and you look sad
There are tears in your eyes and people all around
And there is blood on the street.
if it rains
If it rains
Clouds would not be the one to bleed alone tonight
You have always loved the rain
I remember the way you used to jump in puddles and splash water
Rain always lend your eyes a glint of mischief
Rain made you wild
I remember the moments when we walked through the rain
Holding each other’s hand
You always loved the rain and I loved you
I remember the last time when we met
It was raining that day
I walked four blocks in the rain to get you the carnations that you loved
I saw you standing, all drenched up
There was rain in your hairs and you looked sad
There was no mischief in your eyes and the water on your cheeks wasn’t raindrops
It was tears
I looked at you and you outstretched your palm to hand me back the ring I have given you
I don’t remember what you said nor do I remember the reasons that you gave me
But I do remember the carnations
As they changed their color to muddy brown from white lying there in the puddle
And I remember watching you go as your silhouette faded with the rain
I sat there for a long time trying to recollect whatever there was to
And that day it was not the clouds that only wept
It was me who cried with them.
It hasn’t rained since then but the clouds have returned
And I sit here watching them unroll
Waiting for the rain to come down and wash away my tears.
i don’t want to leave you tonight
I tasted the poison and it felt like life
I have walked across the fire just to be with you tonight
I don’t want this night to end
I don’t want you to leave my side
I have ran across the ocean just to be with you tonight
I want to lie beside you
And watch the stars as they shoot across the sky
Don’t let the world stop you
Don’t let the moment go by
Hold me strong in your arms now
Because I don’t want to lose you tonight
I have fought quite a losing battle
For the world won’t understand
If only you would let me walk beside you
I would show you how it feels like
To love someone so deep inside
It’s like heaven when you are with me and I never felt this alive
You could leave my hand and walk back
And I would understand
But if only you would let me
Look you once more deep in your eyes
For I know you have loved me
And I don’t want to leave you tonight.
every night i lie awake
Every night I lie awake staring at the ceiling
Watch my life go around with the hurricane
I tell myself that I need to make it stop
But all I can do is to watch myself drifting away with it
This was not the way things were to be
And this was not the way life was supposed to be.
I toss and turn around my bed
Trying to feel you in the vacuum next to me
It feels like living through a nightmare
And whenever I close my eyes it’s your face that I see.
I am standing on a ledge and I can’t make the faces of people standing down
I heard them shout and I hear them scream
But none of them came to rescue me
I falling through the space and I see you standing there waiting for me
I am walking towards you, to be with you for an eternity.
it was never easy
Sometime you lie awake in your bed
Thinking of the words you shouldn’t have said
And lots of hearts that you could have mend
The mistakes that you shouldn’t have made
Wishing that your life lets you walk some other way
You bury your face deep in the pillow
So that no one hears your wails
You wish to be alone for you want to cry
Your voice is down and your throat is parched
But you don’t want give up on the past
It was never easy to walk along the line that you walked
Treading between being in love and being lost
You look up at the sky and you see those clouds
You think of rain and you are filled with doubts
You are drenched and emotions are profound
You want to move but you feel like stuck to ground
Things will be better once you move along with your life
For what happened was something which you yourself defined.
night of lights
I look up at the sky and I cannot see the stars
The lights are glittering my eyes
And music is drowning my voice
I feel my feet as they move to the rhythm
And I can feel a new spirit surging through me
Don’t tell me it won’t last forever
For I haven’t seen such a beautiful sight lately
I want to scream with the crowd
And I want to sing at the top my voice
I am afraid no one will hear me
But then they all have their own songs to sing
I feel sweat as it trickles down my brows
And I know my legs will soon give away
But I don’t want to stop now and I don’t want it to end
Let’s feel these moments for they won’t ever come back
But all these memories will last a lifetime
Believe me there isn’t a place you can rather be
For this is what that sets us free
I look up the sky and I cannot see the stars
But they are still there hidden behind all these glitter
Smiling at us as we move through the night.
life is strange
Life is strange. One moment all that you want to do is hold onto whatever things you posses and the other moment you just want to give it all away. One moment to decide for a thing and the other you regret making that choice. It’s like the people whom you have detested all the way long suddenly become your friends. It’s like you spend your lifetime trying to achieve something and when that you achieve it the entire scenario simply loses its meaning. You realize all this searching and striving was all in vain, a delusion. You realize all the sacrifices that you have made were all redundant and all that matters to you now is strikingly distinct from your priorities yesterday.
I have spent a greater part of my life chasing this delusion, thinking that possessing material wealth would really help me get over myself. It does helped though but for a very small time because very soon your eyes start getting tired of endless games that you have played on your play station or your ears could not tolerate that music that your U2 styled IPOD pumps in them. Very soon the image on your 42 inch LCD panel simply began to lose their sheen not because of any malfunctioning but simply because all these things have lost their meaning in your life. You realize that your dreams about living a life king size were nothing but a fluke and all that you want at that moment is to escape from the mundane and listless life you have been living. You try to runaway but there is hardly any escape because you are bound to find people, wherever you go, who seem to be happy with whatever life has to offer to them. You are bound to find couples, sitting together, holding hands, smiling a nonchalant smile oblivious of the world that is sweeping past them. You are bound sense an endless positive vibe flowing all around you but sadly you are not a part of it. There isn’t a w ay you could actually escape from your loneliness and believe me no one could help you get over it, you had to fight it yourself and when you grow out of it you realize how trivial the situation was.
I don’t know if I have really grown out of it as I still feel those bouts of loneliness creeping into my life but I have come in terms with them. I have realized my life is not a product of chance but it’s my own choices which will decide for me. 3 years back I made choice of letting go of a girl whom I loved the most. Today whenever I look back I realize I did made a mistake of denying love from entering my life. Sometime I think of the relationship which I could have had but could thinking about it about it take me back to her. I don’t think so but then why we just end up thinking about things that we could have done or the choices we could have made. Perhaps it’s God’s way for making us realize our mistakes. Whatever it is I am still looking for some way to go back to her, perhaps she is the one who could possibly answer to my loneliness. If only I could know of her feelings for me then perhaps I could go about living in peace with myself.
night of dreams
It was a night of dreams and love was in the air
Their bodies moved to the rhythm and music was everywhere
Their eyes were close but still they could see
All the love that filled their hearts setting their soul free
The world retreated as he looked deep in her eyes
There was nothing between them and they lost track of time
Words were forgotten as feelings got intense
Her embrace felt like freedom, deliverance.
They walked along the sea shore holding each other hands
Each fearful to speak for words may broke the spell
She held on to him as he licked the salt of her neck
Gently she quivered with his fingers caressing her face
They kissed under the sky and the moon and the stars all danced
As they embraced and lost each other in a trance.
It’s all a dream he thought when he woke up next day
But there she lay next to him with her hand right across his chest
He ruffled her hairs as she gently smiled
Thank you she said your love made me feel alive.
deserted town
Each time I look in the mirror
It’s your face that I see
You were the one who made me.
Each empty space I look
Each dark street I walk
It’s you I feel walking beside of me.
Each of my breath reminds me of you
And of every step that you taught me
And of every instant when you picked me up.
Why you have to go now
Leaving me, all alone to fend for myself
I couldn’t live without you, I should have told you
And now with you gone, life is nothing but an empty town
And I feel like a stranger amongst this crowd
Searching for someone familiar amongst the unknown.
